"Don't ever lose faith in who you are, for that's what makes you different.
Don't try to turn yourself into someone everyone else is, for if that happens, the world is a poorer place."
- Sept 2005
it's chinese new year here. not as much atmosphere, but thank god for friends. i suddenly feel fortunate that i've a close group of friends here or else life will really be miserable. part of me misses what i have back home, but another part is really enjoying London. but yet another part of me simply hates and fears what my life is turning out into here. it's never easy, it's painful even, to see people find others. people that i care about. people whom i thought maybe...
and still i have to face them, strongly, even though i feel weak and battered inside. there's only so much one can take, and i think i should just give up totally. there's no point. i'm really tired, what's the point when the happiness you pursue always ends up elsewhere...