"Don't ever lose faith in who you are, for that's what makes you different.
Don't try to turn yourself into someone everyone else is, for if that happens, the world is a poorer place."
- Sept 2005
new term has been coming along really really well so far.. lectures are fun, i'm feeling more motivated to do stuff... finding more meaningful uses for my time... maybe it's just a question of focus, of the stuff that i've so neglected last term. i hope that i'll be able to keep up this momentum..
new developments have left me questioning myself once again though... is she the one for me? so many questions, so many variables, so many possibilities. i don't want to get hurt again, but if i don't try i'll never know right?
relationships are so complex, is it worth upsetting something that you have at present to achieve more? is it wise to look back and regret what was done or to look back and regret what could have been? it's such a torture sometimes. i'd really like to get to know here better, hang out with her more often, but she seems set on someone else. how can i even hope to battle this? staring at the walls asking myself questions won't provide me with answers. i'm a coward when it comes to stuff like this. dammit..