"Don't ever lose faith in who you are, for that's what makes you different.
Don't try to turn yourself into someone everyone else is, for if that happens, the world is a poorer place."
- Sept 2005
Our soul waits for the LORD, He is our help and our shield.
For our heart shall rejoice in Him, because we have trusted in His holy name.
Let Your mercy, O LORD, be upon us, just as we hope in You.
-Psalms 33:20-22
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I sit for my commercial contracts paper tomorrow. It's a paper that I thought I will do well in, but now I am scared and am completely unprepared for the paper. Perhaps it is my fault that I did not spend enough time during easter preparing for the paper, and as such don't feel prepared for it. But it is so disappointing because I know that this is my strongest module. But it is one which I don't think I can score in. But nonetheless I'm going to give it my very best tomorrow, for there is nothing more I can do now.
I am scared, but my faith and belief keeps me going. And I am so appreciative of my friends who never did forget me even in their hectic programmes. Thanks Livvy for those well wishes. They mean a lot to me, coming from a friend as dear as you.
This examination is killing me. it's really taking a lot out of me and I am burning out. I am tired and weary, and sometimes I just feel like giving up. But I know I can't give up. It's just not me to do so. But when the heart is willing but the body is weak, you get someone who doesn't really know what he wants and doesn't know what he can do. The comfort is that it may be over soon, but I don't take joy in that, for it just means that I have a year before it repeats itself again.
When I go out to work, will it be the same? If it is, why am I working so hard for those long hectic hours? for those tortorous times? I really don't know and I really don't care at this moment. I know I just have to try my best, the rest is up to God. He knows what is best for me, I can only follow.