"Don't ever lose faith in who you are, for that's what makes you different.
Don't try to turn yourself into someone everyone else is, for if that happens, the world is a poorer place."
- Sept 2005
It's a long time in the making. It's a decision which I always wanted to take but never quite had the guts to. But yes it's been done.
From day one when I first stepped foot into the LSE, I told myself I wanted to do Public International Law under Professor Christopher Greenwood QC. I ran away from it in year two, and I nearly did again in year three. but. erm. I did it. What this means though, is that with a subject combination as mine, I've as good as thrown my first class honours away. Well, it was technically still possible with a lighter subject combination this year, but I guess it's my fault that I didn't work hard enough in year two. It's ok, I told myself I'd be happy with a 2:1, and this it shall be.
I think, deep down inside, while I do want the first, it still ultimately comes second to doing subjects I think I will truly enjoy. I didn't enjoy advanced torts much last year, even though it was supposedly among the easiest to score in. I am keen not to repeat the mistakes again this year. It's a difficult decision, especially since all my other friends are doing easy subjects to hit the first, but for me, it's personally not in me to just take the easy way out of situations. If I were to get a first out of any of the subjects I'm doing this year, I will be very proud indeed. It's tough, but i'll try. And with God's grace, may I succeed.
I've been thinking about careers and all the glittery paths my peers have embarked on. Part of me feels a tinge of envy, but yet another part of me knows that He has a plan for me, and in recent times, the plan has never looked clearer. I've always had to wait to get what I want, but when it comes, it comes even better than I had ever expected. I have complete faith in the Lord, and may His light shine on me, and my friends whom I care so much for.
It's going to be a tough year ahead, given my numerous committments, but I will manage. With discipline and determination, it will be a very good year indeed.