"Don't ever lose faith in who you are, for that's what makes you different.
Don't try to turn yourself into someone everyone else is, for if that happens, the world is a poorer place."
- Sept 2005
It's a milestone this post. According to blogger it would be my 200th post ever since this blog started, and to last that many entries, I think is some achievement.
Finally back in London after a good weekend in Brussels, only spoilt by rotten weather on the first day, train delays on the second, and a flight cancellation on the third. Put that down to Kelvin's luck but its time I put my legal training into use with an official complaint about how the flight cancellation was handled.
I was in a right foul mood about it all, not to mention very tired of running around airports looking like an illegal immigrant, but all the edge was taken off during lunch today. In no small part due to beckY whom I finally get to sit down and have a good talk with. I have been so busy over the past 2 months that meeting up for a nice meal is a luxury which has been few and far between. It was a simple meal, but nonetheless, the feeling of being able to talk about anything under the sun with someone, that is something that I haven't felt for a long long time.
But yes, it's been a tough time for me. I have so much to do, so much to think about, so much to worry about, that I haven't had time to be myself. Someone told me it's good to be busy, but what becky said was true as well, sometimes, we just need time to think carefully.
And to think carefully I must. It's been a torrid time in terms of decision making. I have had to make decisions when I'm in no state to make decisions, and that if anything has left me ruing "what if i had done things differently". But the fact is, if I had done things differently, would it have made very much difference at all?
It's hard to be happy all the time, but at least I should try.